Drawing with Tears " ~

a s s a l a m u a l a i k u m "

hye ...

when i see what happened to me lately .

i feel regret telling you the truth ..

i wish i can turn back time ..

and take back all those words that i told you ,

i'm really disappointed to my self ...

how did my heart being caught : ("

he knows a lot of girls is watching him ,

and now i'm nothing ...

he didn't care because , 

there's more watching him instead of me ..

as i waited for a reply from him ..

he was actually replying the person beside me ..

when i found out about that ..

my heart , it feels hurt T^T "

i closed my eyes n hit my chests ,

& said to my self , forget about him ...

now i can see , that person found someone ..

that suitable him ..

someone he can talk to .

laugh with , smile with , joke with ..

but with me , i'm just a shy girl ..

which who can only watch him with hope he talk to me ... 

i finally realize that he starting to get bored with me ...

i can't stand watching & hearing anymore ..

my jealousy is getting strong ....

it was already late .. 

he was still replying with her ..

i feel hurt again ...

i'm not sure ..

i think he's calling her ....

i don't want to hear anything ...

i turn up my volume until 200%

i can't do it anymore ... 

i have to do something to clear about that person in my heart ,,,

the person that i kept on waiting from the first ..

he respond to me a bit recently ...

i'm taking decisions to choose him ,

i hope he could make me forget about that person ...

one person told me that ...

" u will never loss if that person didn't choose u , 

but instead he will regret because he will never be ..

the person i'm watching in the future "

and now since this is what u want our relationship to be ...

then we will be nothing but just an awkward friend ,,

i will no longer need your smile ...

i will no longer need to look at you ..

reply to you & waiting for you ..

today was the day ...

i'm doing my drawing with tears fall from my eyes ... T^T "

its time to close my heart ...
i cried silently so my friend won't know that i'm actually hurt ..
thanks to my friend who always makes me smile ^^ "

" ya Allah tutupkn lah hatiku buat sementara waktu ,

agar ku boleh menjalankan urusan ku dengan tenang "