a s s a l a m u a l a i k u m ,
its been a while ,
i really barely had any mood to update actually..
i was so busy with my house chores, my undone painting,
my extra job & bla bla bla.. about my life...
right now, i'm a bit stressed ,
maybe because i just can't bare
with to many things to do at the same time..
i don't know which one should i do first and which is second ..
anyway.. I'm not gonna write about that now..
as i was reading my pile of comics ^^ "
some of the story really did made me cry..
well of course, i'm a girl who has a soft heart
just like any other girls around the world..
what ever about that..
but there's this one book..
which the title really brings back some of my memory..
the title was " ... " hoho, secret ^p^ " ~
it reminds me of someone once who really appreciate me ..
well, now I don't know maybe that person is already forget about me..
" sigh " I can't do anything about it any more..
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okay " ! ~
first of all,
the first time we met ,
when i'm was 18..
i'm actually have no attention to this Person at all..
i called him AH "
i can see AH eyes straight to my eyes..
i do not know for sure..
but i think i can see that..
than me & friends had a small induction with AH and friends
AH knows that i live kinda a bit near to AH's place..
so, Ah kept on asked me " have u been here , there ... before ? "
i was a bit shy and blur..
all i answered was " err.. erm.. aa.. that's right, I'm not really sure eheheh "
awkwardly answering ..
but Ah and friends are really nice..
at the end of our induction ..
i was the last one there..
AH comes towards me..
and said " if you need anything , i can teach you "
than AH leave me with a smile..
which poked my heart..
i was like.. " Omo.. that is so sweet >.< "
ngee heheh ...
i always wanted to meet AH..
i kept on sayin to my friends i want to see AH..
and told them do not disturb Ah.. AH is mine..
lol stupid of me by saying that..
but my friends understand ^^ "
every time they saw AH,
they'l told me " qila qila we saw ur AH today "
and i was like, really i wanna see AH ... "
but it is the end of the first semester..
hmm well i guess i'll meet ya next sem..
I'm meeting AH again,
i'm happy AH been chosen as the leader..
funny , what a small leader..
My friends started to take AH and friends number phone..
and they were like..
"qila... we have AH number phone..
don't cha wanna??"
all i said is..
" r u guys insane , no way ! "
at first i don't think i needed AH number..
but as time goes by..
i do really need help from AH,
so i took AH number and started to text AH ,
with reason of course...
they said we can only ask help from AH..
AH was a bit rough at first..
a normal text .. with the end of bye..
than i still need AH help,
so i text AH again,
AH seems kinda a bit angry..
i was like.. sorry i really need the information.. =_= "
but what is weird, i text AH like 3times...
AH will ask me before our conversation ends .
Is this Qila who live in KL ?
i kept thinking why AH kept asking me that question..
than a few weeks later,
suddenly AH called me,
with reasons technically,
always ask me this and tell me some important information..
a few days later i was heart broken..
AH came to our class,
AH give some tips to us,
but i was a bit moody,
i didn't even looked at AH that time,
instead i stand up and go straight to the toilet.
actually to wipe my tears...
i don't want my friends to know that , i was actually sad..
when i came back,
AH is not there anymore..
than my phone vibrates,
i looked at my phone,
it was a message from AH,
i was like " huhh ? "
AH asked me , am i okay..
why you look so quite just now..
i was like " OMO !! "
AH was actually cared ??
" owh you got to be kidding me "
than i told AH , i'm not in the mood today,
than AH replied , what happened why r u moody..
my impression at that time was "
" is this person really want to know why am i sad,
is this person really watch me all along ,
is this person really cared ?? "
so i just accept AH as a friend,
AH was really kind,
i meet AH a few times,
i was really shy,
Sometimes i hide my face with my sketch book
every time i meet AH.
AH sent me a text often after that..
we started to know each other,
i know a lot about AH lifes
and AH knows a lot about me
AH has become one of my family there..
AH really took a good care of me..
I meet AH a lot,
at the same place as always..
AH give me a lot of goodies,
i gave AH a lot of goodies too..
we were like family,
every time AH hungry,
AH called,
i don't know AH was hungry..
i ask AH i r u hungry ??
cause i just got a lot of food from My event..
than AH said, how did u know i was hungry..
lol..
so i gave the foods to AH,
Every time i'm sad, AH was always there..
understanding, supported me,
even when i was not in a good health ,
AH really did took a good care of me..
when AH felt sad, AH called me and ask to see me,
so i bought AH a chocolate milk and egg sandwich to comfort AH,
I'm happy to see AH happy..
there's a side of AH that, AH only showed to the one who were close to AH.
there's this one time i wanted to show my cat face..
AH was so tired actually ..
But AH did came to see me,
i felt bad so i gave AH Mandarine oranges to AH"
AH still smiling ...
i was really thankful AH was there beside me..
but after that event ....
AH change completely,
maybe AH was so busy ,
but even when everything is over, AH really didn't even talk to me..
i bumped to AH a few days later,
all AH did is just walk pass by me and as if we do not know each other,
i don't really care as always,
because AH will contact me soon enough
but this time was different,
we are like a total stranger..
i just want to know the reasons..
you promise me you are not the same as other,
you promise me you will always be there for me,
you promise me you will never abandon me even if both of us has
finally had a lover..
but what happened now??
to me, if that is what you want,
than i will act like we are stranger
just like we never even know each other..
Its was a nice short memory of you,
all i can say you are my hero at that time,
you came to my life perfectly when i needed someone there..
our silly coincident : -
" I've told AH that, i told my friends don't disturb you because , i already choose you "
AH laugh , saying that ,
" he told his friends the same thing.. "
funny , oh well ... what can i do... only Allah know why,
see you in future bro...
tata ,
wish you all the best ...
that's all for now..
update soon ...
by : q i l a d i
