( ありがとう ございました。"~)

I'm hurt by watching.. you guys ..



A s s a l a m u a l a i k u m..


Hey,
I’m really busy with my assignment and project these days...
I barely online to update my blog and all ..
It’s been really tough lately ..


Through money , stuff needed to buy , event & task...
Almost 1week I did get to charge my own battery to full mode ^^ “
Its means , I don’t have enough rest & Sleep..
well that’s that...
Now what I’m really worried about is ...
I can see my friends relationship between each other ..
Its kinda a bit crack ...
I don’t like to watch this happened ..
I know some of you are stressed , tired , fed up & all...
But please even though u felt that ..
Try to control it..
I can see which u guys accidently throw your anger at each other ..
Without realizing , you hurt each other heart ..
Which makes me cry and upset...


it’s okay to say sorry first , & comfort the ones you hurt ..
I really love to see you guys smiling ..
That’s what makes me stronger here ..


Seeing you guys angry and not talking to each other..
Makes me hurt ...


Now I can see ..
Not all friendship last ...
Even a small thing could crash it ...
Why do everyone has to be ego ...
You know the ones that easily forgive ..
Is the one Allah SWT love ..

Please you guys ..
I’m asking you now ..
Is this the end of our story between us ..
Than we are gonna be just the same as the people
That has their own group among each other ..
I don’t want to watch all of this again ..
Please forgive each other ..

Don’t throw your anger to people ..
Everything that happened to you is what Allah has planned.
And you should be proud of it because..
Allah choose to let you feel that pain..
I know its hurt ...
But you will receive the best reward from Allah ..
But all you have to do is bare with it and be patience ..
Please don’t let our friendship crack because of a small thing ..


( ya Allah , izinkan persahabatan kami tidak putus,
hanya kerana perkara yang tidak munasahabah ini ya Allah .
 berikan lah kami kekuatan dan ketabahan hati ,
berikan la petunjuk hidayahmu kepada kami,
dan izinkan lah kami menjadi orang yang
berguna dan Berjaya pada masa yang akan datang )



by : keechul 


Everything that Allah shows ^^ "

A s s a l a m u a l a i k u m ..

hey hey ^^ "

a few weeks ago ...
everything sad was happening to me ..
my cat is leaving me ...
i'm a bit stress with work ..
the person which i like " la sgt " -_- " ..
i'm worried about my mom who kept on having fever recently ..
i want to go home to take care & help her ..
but i have so much things to do here ...
urghhhh ........
i know if i go home now .. 
all my assignment won't be done ...
and many more ..
but i'm really worried about my family the most ...

( oh Allah , please make sure my family and all your servant will be safe )


makes me wanna explode i guess >,< "

but what happend ...
i realize it was a massage from Allah SWT "
even though i'm sad for a while ..
after those days ...
something brightly happening to me ..
i'm really thankful to Allah SWT "
a l h a m d u l i l l a h ....
i called my mom often ... & my father , & also the whole family ..
i can't accept that keechul is no longer with me ..
but i missed keechul so much ..

thankyou for always with me keechul when i'm sad ..
ur the best cat i've ever had ... miss u n <3 u ... "
i've cleared about the jerk in my mind ..

Allah shows me the dark side of the person which hurting me ..
if i didn't know about him replying her & her , 
& he only plays with me all this time ...
i may be the stupidest person in the whole over the world ..
i can't believe he said that ..
she's the one who liked me , 
it seems like to him , its not my fault she hurt because she liked me ..
i mean WHAT !!!!! ..
i never said that i like u like like .
i only said that i maybe like you .. that's it ..
what ever , what had happened it past already ..
and i'm already forget about it ..
i don't hate you ..
its just that my impression to you has changed .
when you smile .. all i can see it is  not a honest smile ..
i don't have any desire to talk , reply or look at you anymore ..
all that feeling has gone ..
but i still cared about you as a friend ..
but you didn't appreciate that...
fine, don't want to care about you anymore ..
well to you there's more people who wants to care about you .
so , you don't need me right ..
all i can say that , i have no regret from loosing you ..
there's actually more people who wants to get near me ..
but i thought i have to be faithful to you ,
but i guess i'm wrong ... 
oh well , all the best to you ..
good luck"

i have a cute biggie bro who always accompany me 
and makes me smile ..
he had a cute smile too ^o^ "
hoho " ~

and this person who always makes me happy ..


makes me blush ^^ "
even though he is as cold as ice .. 
but i like just the way that person are heheh ...
as long as you accept me as i am , 
and i accept as you are ..
concentrate on our studies ,
doin the best art together with friends ,
catch our dream ...
being happy ..
study study study "
and always remember Allah " 

intoducing ....


left beside me , kak long " yong " a.k.a " yano "
the one with the biggie eyes , kak ngah " nyah " a.k.a " milo "
infront me , kak cik " kcik " a.k.a " ikaa "
right beside me , ucu " chuu " a.k.a " kikin "
lalalala " ~

tman1 msok air bilaa tensen wawawawa "
kat bilik sume cam samseng hahak "

i'll update soon " ~
tata ..



by : k e e c h u l 









Drawing with Tears " ~

a s s a l a m u a l a i k u m "


hye ...

when i see what happened to me lately .
i feel regret telling you the truth ..
i wish i can turn back time ..
and take back all those words that i told you ,
i'm really disappointed to my self ...
how did my heart being caught : ("

he knows a lot of girls is watching him ,
and now i'm nothing ...
he didn't care because , 
there's more watching him instead of me ..
as i waited for a reply from him ..
he was actually replying the person beside me ..
when i found out about that ..
my heart , it feels hurt T^T "
i closed my eyes n hit my chests ,
& said to my self , forget about him ...
now i can see , that person found someone ..
that suitable him ..
someone he can talk to .
laugh with , smile with , joke with ..
but with me , i'm just a shy girl ..
which who can only watch him with hope he talk to me ... 
i finally realize that he starting to get bored with me ...
i can't stand watching & hearing anymore ..
my jealousy is getting strong ....
it was already late .. 
he was still replying with her ..
i feel hurt again ...
i'm not sure ..
i think he's calling her ....
i don't want to hear anything ...
i turn up my volume until 200%
i can't do it anymore ... 
i have to do something to clear about that person in my heart ,,,
the person that i kept on waiting from the first ..
he respond to me a bit recently ...
i'm taking decisions to choose him ,
i hope he could make me forget about that person ...
one person told me that ...
" u will never loss if that person didn't choose u , 
but instead he will regret because he will never be ..
the person i'm watching in the future "
and now since this is what u want our relationship to be ...
then we will be nothing but just an awkward friend ,,
i will no longer need your smile ...
i will no longer need to look at you ..
reply to you & waiting for you ..
today was the day ...
i'm doing my drawing with tears fall from my eyes ... T^T "
its time to close my heart ...
i cried silently so my friend won't know that i'm actually hurt ..
thanks to my friend who always makes me smile ^^ "


" ya Allah tutupkn lah hatiku buat sementara waktu ,
agar ku boleh menjalankan urusan ku dengan tenang "

m u s i c by :

kiss me (G.na)

White Cat's paw